These are images that remind me of fading passions and lost dreams, many things in life involve losing and moving away... fleeting moments and fading light...
My pieces have used silver gelatin paper and black and white film for years, TRACES is inspired by a bag of 35mm color film I had been collecting. There were rolls of Provia, Portra and all different ISO’s each film containing its own emulsion, color palette and grain. On each shoot after I would struggle to frame and focus and use the 4 x 5 View Camera, I would throw a couple of rolls of 35mm into an old Nikon and just shoot. It was a whole new physical and emotional experience for me, the camera was light weight , the lens was small in my hand and I could dance around the subject. I push the photography to play with me, I shoot shallow depth of field and usually very slow- I am a rebel in my artwork breaking the chains that hold me in the commercial world. I like my art work to surprise me , excite me and show me things I cannot see at the shoot. I capture the essence of what is there and what I feel abstractly. My work is autobiographical , there are many places that I tell my story, in the photograph, the print and then of course the mixed media I add to the surface. This body of work is about a new phase of living, one that involves minimalism, feeling lighter, dreaming and obscurity.
Lying naked in the snow…exhilarating, aching and painful in a beautiful way. Emotionally thought provoking. Penetrating without being rough, connecting to the soul…like when the snow falls and freezes the world and everything is still alive but deadly quiet. When I was a child I would catch fireflies in a jar and cover the jar lid with foil, punch little holes in the top of the jar and then sit in the dark of my closet and watch them flicker on and off until they died. It was an experience of joy and tragedy, of intimacy and exile of love and hate. I wanted the fireflies to live forever in my prison, to light up my world and stay with me… despite their death sentence.
A delicate web of nature, the fragility of life, solitary moments of self-reflection and a silent fall from grace.
Lavender and Lemon
Scratches on glass
My art making is a combination of photography and mixed media, darkroom printing on silver paper, and painting with oils and wax. I am vision impaired: my one eye is like a hawk’s, precise and crisp and my other eye is nearly blind, fuzzy and soft. There are moments of control and moments of intuition… focus /blur, focus/blur a seesaw back and forth until I find balance. I bounce between these worlds of focus and blur to etch my portraits of emotion.